A Reflection - From the Diary of Sissy Ineke

“A Reflection - From the Diary of Sissy Ineke" was written for BDSMforyou.nl by Mistress Moriah.

I wrote to Mistress Moriah about a question I was asked in my private circle. That question really made me think. After my last meeting with Mistress Moriah, I was still thoroughly basking in our session. In other words, everything I had experienced with her. My wife, by the way, thought it was wonderful and felt that I should also do a bit more housework at home. Of course I already do that, but she felt it could be done a bit better.

Conversation

I told my wife everything about the session, because it had been so lovely and so relaxing. It is simply wonderful to do, in that moment, whatever gives you a kind of kick or thrill. She listened attentively and every now and then there was a big laugh, because a session with Mistress Moriah also means plenty of bursts of laughter. And my wife had been sent a few little videos by her. My wife thought I looked beautiful!

I smiled and got a bit shy as well. Because even though my wife is very open-minded, I found it quite difficult for a moment. But she gave me a hug and said, “sweetheart, I'm glad you have discovered yourself in this way.” I hugged her tightly back, and she asked a few questions, among them this one.

Question

My wife asked me whether I now wanted to be a woman 24/7. I had to think about that question for a moment, as I had done before. And I turned it into a rhetorical question: “are you going to vacuum in heels from now on?” My wife had to laugh, and said, “yes, you'd like that, wouldn't you, but what is your answer?” “Well, I've thought about it before, darling, and I've also talked about it with Mistress Moriah. But the answer is no, I can be very brief about that.” My wife smiled and said, “and yet I'd like a bit more explanation, not because I would disapprove or not, but because I'm curious what it gives you.”

Cleaning slut

I told my wife that I love wearing women's clothing. With lace panties I love feeling them rub against my cock. And serving a Mistress, for example being a (cleaning) slut for her, turns me on enormously. And yes, of course I want to walk around in women's clothes more often, in heels, with make-up on. But I don't feel the need to go through the so-called transition. I am simply every inch a man, with a few feminine traits here and there. From her own experience, Mistress Moriah also pointed out that there is no standard sissy, or cleaning sissy. Of course there are some skills that come in handy. It is about the experience I get out of it, and that is not the same for everyone. According to Mistress Moriah, that always makes it a unique experience.

Reflection

I would like to share this reflection with you. My next appointment with Mistress Moriah is in a few weeks. She also wanted me to put this reflection on paper, as information for others. So here it is.

Sissy Ineke