Report on the 2024 advent calendar (part 1)

“Report on the 2024 advent calendar (part 1)“ was written for BDSMforyou.nl by sub j.

This year, the last task of the 2024 advent calendar was to make a silly Christmas video and to write a report on how you experienced the advent calendar. I would like to share a few of these reports with you, because they give a lovely insight into how special, fun, varied and intense these 24 days have been for everyone. I am publishing the reports in separate parts. Today it is sub J's turn to speak.

When I read the task, I thought ‘Oh, of course, pfff….’ and shared that with You straight away. I already had a strong suspicion that this task would come, and sure enough, my premonition turned out to be right. To be completely honest (and You know this): when I get a task like that, it nestles itself in my brain and everything in my system says: ‘You are going to do this. For your Mistress. Full stop’. So bizarre, but at the same time so beautiful….

Take part or not?

The announcement of Your first Advent Calendar made me very curious: what exciting, arousing and confronting (or boring?) tasks would the participants get and, even more importantly: do I dare to sign up? I hesitated and hesitated until shortly before the start You asked me once more: ‘So, does it appeal to you to take part’? To this sincere and somewhat directive question from You I could no longer say ‘No’: I decided to take part and would see how it turned out.

If it turned out not to be ‘my thing’ at all, I could simply ‘step out’ again or pay a fine, so what did I have to lose? And now, on the 24th day of Advent, I come to the conclusion that I am truly going to miss the daily tasks…

Variety

From cucumber to bodystocking, and from handing a bunch of flowers to a complete stranger to filming a hilarious little dance of myself: absolutely everything was in there. Taking the odd little hurdle now and then? Good heavens, I had to clear quite a high hurdle several times and kept asking myself: ‘Why am I doing this, what is the point, do I dare to carry out this task’?

It started very innocently with a visit to the supermarket and taking a photo of the cucumber and Vaseline I had bought. Gradually the tasks became more exciting, more challenging and more and more ‘special’. But I did it and decided to keep going until the end. For You, my Mistress, my Mistress.

Feelings

To start straight away with the hardest question: what did the Advent Calendar do to me? After I had signed up, I got the feeling that I simply HAD TO carry out Your tasks, however difficult and confronting they might become. Sometimes I asked You a short question or got in touch briefly: not for a moment did I think about not carrying out a task. Why? Because You were in my head every day and more or less controlled me ‘from a distance’, or at least that is how it felt.

Did I feel any reluctance or shame about, for example, going into an erotic shop and asking the shop assistant to advise me on buying a bodystocking? No, not at all! And the special thing was that this shop assistant took such delight in helping me well! And I gazed around that shop in wonder: what beautiful things I saw there, I will definitely go back some time!

Thoughts

When I think back on the past 4 weeks, the following words and images come floating to the surface. Pleasant tension and arousal. Boundary-pushing. Focus, on You: simply doing what You want. Taking hurdles. Approaching people and situations with an open mind. Trusting myself. My own intuition too. Thinking in possibilities and solutions. Making use of my own creativity. Managing to rescue myself in bizarre situations. Learning and growing. Getting to know myself (much!) better. Daring to show vulnerability. Sometimes a moment of attention for my feminine sides. Difficult, tricky or confronting? Not using the bonus task: no escape, I love it! Simply doing what is said. Full stop. Addictive? Yes, that too. Switching off now, it will be fine. Balance.

Bizarre task

Very boldly, I dared to write to You: ‘I have already had the chance to get acquainted with tabasco, so this task will be a piece of cake’. You replied, possibly with a cynical undertone: “True, this one will be easypeasy for you’. Well, I certainly found out! I had no idea how much of this stuff You had used on me some time ago, so I decided to use it fairly generously. I SMeared and SMeared but felt nothing yet: just carry on a bit longer then…. Shortly afterwards my whole ‘package’ was on fire, and I went like greased lightning to the bathroom to fetch a flannel in an attempt to put out the blaze: unfortunately without result.

For the next hour I gritted my teeth through the pain and tried to find distraction, which did not work at all. You were in my head and just stayed there. Endlessly arousing, yes, that too. Fantasies haunting my mind: what wonderful things you could do with this. Such as? Well, perhaps it is wise to keep that to myself…. The bottle of tabasco is in a safe place at the back of the kitchen drawer and will stay there for the time being.

Advent calendar 2025?

I say straight away: yes, let's do it! I now have a number of (draft) tasks on paper and will add to this list. The tasks range from simple to difficult; I personally like the idea of having some parts of tasks return, like a kind of common thread: I will work that out further. Other subs will probably also come up with playful, bizarre and magnificent ideas from which You can make a selection in due course, supplemented with Your own.

In conclusion

I am genuinely glad that I took part, Mistress Moriah, so thank you for asking me once more at the last minute. And a big compliment for Your creativity and perseverance in simply doing it! Which place I finish in makes no difference to me: Piet (or Klaas or Jasper or Marcel) deserves first place. You are in my head, and that is many, many times more important.

sub J

Source

Text: sub j
Photography: BDSMforyou