The slave of my Femdom Mistress - From the diary of slave Katinka

“The slave of my Femdom Mistress“ was written for BDSMforyou.nl by Mistress Moriah.

According to “the norm” I should never begin with myself, and certainly not with a capital letter. Apparently I'm a tad stubborn, and I'm sure I'll hear about it. Or not, because my Femdom Mistress gives me all the room to give my view on things. We also philosophise a lot about life. We stimulate each other to think about each other's perspectives or about things we have read. By going deeper than the superficial, you get to know and appreciate each other even better.

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Wearing the trousers

Femdom is a lifestyle that, without some women being aware of it, is nevertheless already part of the relationship they have. After all, the woman is often the guiding person within a relationship. She oversees everything. And often she decides everything too. The linchpin of a relationship, of a family. As it should be. The saying “that woman wears the trousers” has to come from somewhere. Personally, I love it when male colleagues fetch coffee for me or immediately do what I ask of them. And I love it when they hold the door open for me. I am really “my own man” in lots of things, but in this kind of thing I love the courtesy of men. In my lesbian relationships I was always very courteous towards the woman. So I am also always very surprised when a woman puts the bin out while she has a man.

And what about you?

When I explain that to people who have no idea at all what Femdom means, or even what BDSM is, they ask themselves: but how do you fit into that? You're quite dominant. And a woman, and lesbian on top of that. Then I get all the follow-up questions. And don't you have sex with your Femdom Mistress? Do you worship her? How? And don't you long for a relationship, don't you want to live together in the sense of the house, the picket fence, the pets? And on top of that you let yourself be tormented.

Worship

I worship my Femdom Mistress, she is my Dominant, my coach, the woman I go down on my knees for. And that worship is 24/7. Not the knees, because that would be really painful. I can still remember our meeting as if it were yesterday. She walked in, and I was silent and didn't know where to look. Her appearance, wow. In my whole life nobody had managed to silence me, or to make me open up and be vulnerable. She succeeded. And who would have thought that I could take all the torment for the sake of my mental release? Not me, beforehand; I had no idea what plans She had for me.

Simply because I trusted Her immediately and She was more interested in me than in whether I had limits. I never had to think about that. It all happens naturally. Purely on feeling. Actually, I found the proverbial needle in the haystack quickly, or at least my D and I were quickly brought into contact with each other. And of course, besides having a D/s dynamic, together with her sub we are also very good friends.

No sex?

And no, I have no need for a relationship with another woman in the sense of the house, the picket fence, the pets, alongside our D/s. I would feel it as unfaithful towards my Dominant. And that sounds special to many people because I don't have sex with my Dominant, or let me put it differently: I wouldn't want to either. My D is a beautiful woman, and I also regularly get aroused by how she is dressed or by what she stirs in me. The moment I had sex with my D, the roles would change and we would no longer have D/s. I laugh out loud, she wouldn't want it either. Totally fine, that makes it a lot easier and nicer for me. Because I am a giver when it comes to sex, so now I don't have to think at all about whether I would be short-changing her.

It gives room to release my pent-up mental burdens. And can I have a relationship in the sense of the house, the picket fence, the pets with a dominant, lesbian woman? I can be very brief about that. No. I have chosen my path. I am the slave of a (Femdom) Mistress. And I am very grateful for that.

Coach

I'll go back for a moment to my list, and especially the term coach. In the years that I have been in contact with my D, I have grown in my being. I stand firmly with both feet on the ground, and I no longer concern myself at all with what others think of me. I know who I am, what I want and what I don't want. That is important too. Where someone else, possibly supported by medication and years of therapy, has seen little change, a lot has changed for me. Emotionally, I stand more firmly in life. I can value myself at my true worth and I feel better than ever. I now know the meaning of “gentle healers make stinking wounds”. And I can only confirm that. So true.

My D is the most beautiful of all!

But back to Femdom for a moment. For centuries we have known that women are mentally able to keep several balls in the air, oversee everything and, with our (spiritual) power, achieve quite a lot. And apparently this makes some men anxious; they don't want to see that power. The witch hunts did not happen for nothing. Unfortunately, the media have also shown all kinds of images of what the ideal woman should look like. As a result women become insecure about themselves or jealous of other women. Totally unnecessary.

Let women seek connection with each other. Every woman is beautiful and should be worshipped. Courtesy and worship should most definitely be a must. I believe that courtesy and worship should be intrinsic values and should not only be shown at a Femdom party. I always say: women are the most beautiful beings on earth, but my D is the most beautiful of all.

slave anne (proud slave of Mistress Moriah)

Source

Text: slave anne
Photography: Mrs Moriah