Twelve years later… there’s Lalaland

“Twelve Years Later… There Is Lalaland” was written for BDSMforyou.nl by Mistress Moriah.

Sometimes you look back and realize that twelve years doesn’t actually sound that long – until you realize how much life can fit into twelve years. And yet these years have flown by. Years full of happy and not-so-happy moments, highs and lows, intense moments, and broken connections. It’s all been worth it. You learn from it, grow, become stronger in harnessing energy, but also mature through being a trusted and discreet ear for many desires, pains, and sorrows.

Twelve years ago, I published my first collection of BDSM poems: The Superlative of Love is BDSM. At the time, that book felt like a space for experiences and emotions on my own journey of discovery. A collection of words that fit who I was back then, how I viewed BDSM, and what I wanted to share with others. When I read it now, I still see that same core, but I also see how much has changed in the meantime. Not just in knowledge or experience, but especially in how I’ve come to understand people.

Recognition

Through everything I’ve done over the past few years – the blogs, the encyclopedia, the books, the workshops, the training sessions, the podcasts, the conversations, and all the encounters – I’ve heard countless stories. Stories of people who are in loving relationships yet still feel something is missing. People who have been holding back a part of themselves for years because they don’t want to lose anyone. People who wonder if their desires are even allowed to exist. People who have started to adapt themselves until one day they discover that they’re still functioning, but have lost a little bit of themselves along the way.

What always touches me about this is that it’s rarely about excitement or thrills. Much more often, it’s about recognition. About the desire to be fully seen. To be loved not only for the parts that are easy, but also for the parts that are complicated, intense, vulnerable, or hard to explain.

Stuck

I receive many emails from people who get stuck in that search. Sometimes because they don’t feel there’s room at home for their desires. Sometimes because they’re afraid of disappointing someone. Or because they’ve told themselves for years that certain feelings will go away on their own if you just ignore them long enough. And time and again, it strikes me how many people think they’re the only ones.

This collection was created for all those people.

From everything I’ve been able to hear, feel, and receive along the way. From conversations that lingered. From sadness that became palpable between the lines. And from desires that were sometimes never put into words. With my latest book Lalaland, I’ve tried to capture something of that inner world.

I’ve tried to capture pain without making it bigger than it needs to be. I’ve tried to give space to longing without pushing it toward any particular destination. I’ve tried to find words for that feeling that many people recognize but find hard to explain.

Poetry Collection

The poems in Lalaland were born from observations, conversations, experiences, and feelings I’ve carried with me over the years. Some texts are gentle, others confrontational. Some are about longing, others about loss, about surrender, about love, about coming home, about waiting, about encountering yourself, and sometimes also about the moment when you suddenly realize that you were never broken, but rather that for a very long time you were not allowed to fully exist.

Each poem is accompanied by illustrations that support the atmosphere and further convey the feeling of the words. Together, they form a collection you can leaf through at your leisure, in which you’ll occasionally recognize something, and in which you might unexpectedly linger on exactly the page you needed that day.

I hope this collection can do something for the people for whom it was written.

That someone feels seen somewhere.

That someone thinks: I know this feeling.

Or that someone takes a moment to breathe and realizes there are more people carrying these kinds of thoughts, desires, and emotions with them.

And perhaps that is ultimately what I most want to offer with this collection. Not answers. But recognition.

Order your own copy

Lalaland After the success of her first poetry collection, The Superlative Degree of Love is BDSM, Meesteres Moriah once again takes you into a world of desire, surrender, pain, connection, and healing. This second collection is more personal, rawer, and more intense. Words that find their way straight into your heart and continue to whisper there softly. In this collection of poems, the boundaries between love, grief, strength, and vulnerability begin to fade. The poems explore themes such as dominance, masochism, humiliation, connection, loneliness, personal growth, farewell, and the longing to be truly seen. Sometimes dark, sometimes comforting, sometimes confronting, but always written with sincerity and emotion. This collection is intended for anyone who has ever lost themselves in silence, shame, or longing. For people who feel that BDSM can be more than just a game. A mirror. A journey. A way to come closer to yourself. Through atmospheric texts and evocative imagery, Meesteres Moriah shows that real BDSM is not about perfection or extremes, but about humanity, trust, and the courage to feel. Sometimes gentle. Sometimes relentlessly honest. But always real. 9789465464725 | 39.95 euro | 94 pages

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Text & image: Mistress Moriah